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我们已经五年多没联络了。。
也不知道在什么情况下，
在今年的3月15号我主动联络他。
我还记得，当我们见面时，
我们就好像哑巴似的不敢跟彼此说话~
可是，当我们一通电话，一聊便是几个小时~

虽然说我们认识那么多年了，
可是我们在过去的五年只一起出去过两次~

时间过得很快，
他追求我也一年多了，
他开始觉得累了所以也因此没再跟我联络~

今年3月21号，我因为胃痛所以要求他载我去看医生，
他二话不说就答应来我家载我~

就从这时候开始，
我跟他又开始有联络了~

因为以前我没好好珍惜他，所以我感到非常后悔~
后悔当初为何拒绝她，
后悔当初为何要让他伤心~
你们知道吗，
在我这辈子人生中，
他是唯一对我最好的人~
也因为这样，
我才会遗憾当初为何不选择他~

这次我告诉自己，
无论结局会是什么，
我一定要把当年没对他说的话，通通都告诉他~
因为我不想再让自己有任何后悔与遗憾~

忘了是在今年的4月的几号，
我告诉他我心里想对他说的话，
结果他告诉我，
一切都太迟了~

他说这五年里发生了很多事，
也导致他的想法与人生观不同了~
他已经无法再像以前那样对待我，
其中最重要的原因是因为有位女孩走进了他的人生~

那时我虽然是很伤心，
但是想一想，现在知道答案，
总比一辈子不说，永远都不懂答案来得好~
因为，起码在未来的日子里，
我的人生不会存有任何遗憾了~

现在的我们，还是一直保持朋友的关系~
我们俩只要谁有心事，
都会向对方寻求意见~

sorry tat i think i should end my blog here..
coz i don’t think it’s reali fine 4 me 2 continue writin~

so finally,
i juz 1 2 say tat,
i reali do enjoy the time when both of us r 2gether~
his reali a gd guy indeed~
no matter wat,
still wish him all the best n stay happy always~
may god bless & no matter wat happen in the future,
juz hope tat he will not forget someone &
therefore, tat person is ME~

Life short & unpredicable..
Treasure every moment when u r with someone as we cant predict future..
As time pass,things changes 2..

LUv come n fade~
Friends come & go~
We work 4 $$ & we spend wat we earn~

So wats the real meanin of life?
It’s totally meaningless & bored rite?

Things r gettin more & more expensive now~
What we earn is not enough 4 us 2 spend!
So wats the real meanin 4 us 2 work so hard?!
It’s totally meaningless & bored rite?!
We work damn hard 4 $$,but we r still poor n not enough 2 spend!
When it’s end of month,we’ll realise tat we ended up (bankrupt)~

When we r gettin older our mind change~
The view we look at things will b different 2~

So does our frenz~
Mind of our fren change 2~
Thinkin of the past,
We use 2 hang around wit a group of fren n have fun 2gether~
But s 4 now,
It’s impossible 4 us 2 gather 2gether again..

Our frens leave us
bcoz of $$,
bcoz of their future,they choose 2 study oversea,
bcoz they 1 2 live in a new environment & therefore they choose 2 immigrate
bcoz they has their own family now ETC…

So lastly,wat i 1 2 say is,
since our fren will leave us anytime,
we need 2 tresure every moment we spend 2gether..
Even though if 1 day ur fren r reali leavin,
wat u left with is not onli lonliness,
but SWEET MEMORY~

life is unpredicable,
who knows wat’s goin 2 happen 2molo??
So strive 4 wat u want!

Things u like juz buy it,
People u like/admire,juz go 4 him/her~

i’m the type of person who like anything will juz buy it even i will not get 2 use in future..
i dun think it’s a waste of $$ coz since we work so hard 4 $$,
we should not spend our $$ juz on our daily expenses,
but 2 buy something 4 ourself 2!
If we cant pamper wit ourself sometime,
Wat 4 we work so hard?!
we might s well commit suicide rite?!

If i like someone,
i’ll juz tell him directly my feelin 4 him n i prefer not 2 hint,
因为等待是漫长与痛苦的。。
& not 2 mention 2 wait 4 guys i like 2 reply his feelin 4 me~

如果在一开始，我只选择用暗示来表达我对他的想法，
可能或许到现在，
我也不会知道他内心对我的感觉 ~
即使知道，我想我也是单方面的在猜想他对我的想法吧~
如果他回答的答案不是自己想要的，
我也不会难过，
因为当不上情侣，
我们依然能做朋友啊~

人啊。。有时要懂得知足。
要知道，这世界那么大，
我们已经有缘当上朋友已经是三生修来的福气了~
现在当不上情侣也并不代表未来不会当上情侣啊！

他或许很快就会离开，
但我也不会有任何遗憾。。
毕竟我已经把想要对他说的话都告诉他了。
离开是他的选择。。
如果他最后真的选择离开，
我在这里就先祝他一切顺利，
要好好照顾自己，
最后是别忘记我这位朋友，
因为远方的我也绝对不会忘记曾经在我生命留下足迹的你。

人就是要这样，
觉得对的事情，
想要做什么就去做！
想要说什么就勇敢的说出来！
想要拥有的东西就该勇敢的去争取！

如果争取换来的是失败，
自己也不会在未来的日子后悔当初自己没直接争取自己想要的，
最后换来无法挽救的遗憾。

千万别让自己的人生（再）有任何后悔的机会~
曾经后悔并不代表未来的日子也是在后悔中度过~
人生会后悔，偶尔是因为自己不曾争取，
所以即使哪怕有一天真的失败，
也不用感到灰心~
毕竟，
我们知道自己曾经有努力追求过自己想佣有的就足够了~

Things changes all the time , and that changes a person too … changes the way they look at things , changes the way they do things , changes their life , others life as well … life is not just about ourselves , its meaningful when you have a big family …

My life was just about myself back then , coz I felt that no one truly appreciate things that I have done for them , and backstab me after they got things that hey want from me . I felt so used all the time .

I’ve learned to do everything by myself , probably because too many people try to fail everything that I do , so I try my best not to allow myself failing myself again …

I start to feel that friends are not necessary those whom u met since you’re a toddler , but those who sincerely care when things happened to you , friends are there when u close your eyes , and you know that you’re not alone …

So to all the people who hated me even before they met me in person , it’S ok .
Coz I believe that the same thing happen to you too …

Life goes on you know …
Everyone has more about the same experience in life .

States of life when u felt that everything ur parents says doesn’t seemed to click ,everything ur boyfriend says seemed so right ,
states when everybody seemed to hate you or anti you ,
states where you seemed to be in the limelight all the time and everybody just loves you ,
states where everything seemed so unfair to you , states where everything u do had been accepted and your dream come true ,
states where you’d wished everybody understands the things that you’re doing ,
states when you don’t care about anything others says about you anymore ,
states where you start thinking hecking everybody and yourself is the only thing that matters to you ,
states where you’ll do anything just to get what you want , states where you start cursing for hours on little things that you’re unhappy of ,
states where you wanna kill yourself but you wanna kill that person who hurt u first before u kill urself ,
states where you cant even remember how many states there is in your own country , yes ?
So , don’t be upset when few people around you want to ruin your life so bad . They’ll do everything to make everybody hates you .
It’s ok . Someday somehow , same things happens to them and they’ll just blame others . They wont understand , coz if they did, they wouldn’t be backstabbers .
Smile coz you are not like them =)
Even if u don’t have that many friends as those people do , soon or later you’ll find yourlself a lot of true friends …

I do not mind how you go around telling people about me
( kindly remember that you do not know me and I do not know you too )
but please be kind for once not to bring those new faces down .
For so long, so many people had been mean to me , im suffering from being low self-esteem , always thinking that im not good enough and i had to quietly suffer all that alone .
Just for once , please , let me have a chance to breath and feel happy , and smile
Words can never tell how grateful i am to all of you …
I owN you a lot , and i shall repay you by being a sincere and genuine friend … a family … for life …
no matter where i ended up to be in the future … we are a family … and this family is growing … with love , care and sincerity …
trying to make a difference by touching other’s life … learning to accept , care and love …

If everybody learned to love , this world would be so beautiful …

Love Always ,

KAILI

I believe that the true test of character is not how much we know how to do , but how we behave when we don’t know what to do. There’s nothing such as a certain right or wrong , it solely depends on how u want to put it and let it be … does right or wrong really matters anyway ? What do u earn from winning ? Is it worth the part that you’re losing ? When you’re at the most downside of your life, u tend to see things clearer. Coz each move u make mean so much , so much more than the same move u take during normal days. It can be the same topic , the same discussion , the same joke , the same thoughts , regardless of whether it’s u or others , one wont understand until we’re left alone n stuck in the situation . No matter what other says , no matter what other does doesn’t seemed to bother or matters to u anymore. Coz the decision that u make lies on nobody else in the world but u … n the pain that u bear , gosh , makes u felt so heartless … dying ? It doesnt matters anymore , my heart dies the second the decision was made final … it’ll be alright soon ? i dont think so . This incident breaks me apart … For these 22 years of my life , i never felt so torn before . I know i could never mend all the pieces back together , it was never meant to be mended … it were never to be accepted … wasn’t given a slight chance to , im sorry , im so so sorry … God ~ I felt as though i have no heart … where have all the love gone ? For all my life i’ve been loving everyone else around me , but why is it so different this time . I am so lost … this is the best for everyone ? But what about me ? What about … oh my god , where is all the love ? Where is justice n fairness ? What about my life ? What about how i feel ? What about my dream ? I really break apart n fall this time , deep n hard … God bless all of you … May you find peace , love & care … I will never forget you … never …

在爱情世界里…
没有谁对不起谁…
只有谁不珍惜谁…
所以两个在一起时…
就要珍惜着对方…
不要等到失去了才后悔…
不要等到离开了才想挽回…
所以我们一定要好好珍惜目前所拥有的一却…

若说无缘又怎会相遇？
若是有缘却又如何分别？
难道正如人们所说:
"我们前生欠着佛前的跪拜，
使得我们今生无缘相守，只能是匆匆地相遇，而后便是长长的思念~~~~"

心里的忧伤不是文字可以表达，
思念也不是岁月能够冲淡。
习惯在黑暗的角落里静静的吸着烟,
习惯了在深夜里听着忧伤的歌曲,
习惯了一次又一次的打击..
在伤害中长大,但,还是那样天真..

缘来则聚，缘去则散，说起来是那样简单容易..
可是，真的当缘分尽时，却有无尽的思念和挂牵留在心底~~~~~~

走过这一路.还有下一路.路是没有终点的..
不记得曾经在哪一路丢失了他，
但是我不后悔.你也有自己的路..
在路的二端我们终是朋友..
因为最近我终于又遇到他..
他是我以前暗恋过的男生…
是命运让我和他在五年后的现在相遇，
我没想到我和他竟然会有这么深厚的缘分~~~

如果时间能够倒流的话..
问我为什么喜欢他,
那我也只能说，
喜欢就是喜欢啊..
很喜欢跟他聊天的时候
因为可以很开心..
一路走来真的很不容易.
我们都有我们自己的生活。。
我们也都处在不同的世界。。

虽然时间不能忘记一个人的存在
但却加深了思念
虽然不能和他到永远。。。
但只希望他知道我从没忘记过他..

失去爱情的确会让人伤心难过和不知所措
但也不要躲在角落哭泣..
潇洒的微笑..
微笑比哭泣更需要勇气..
我们都一样..
被爱伤了又伤..
受伤了还不投降..
相信付出会有代价..
代价只是一句..
傻瓜